I’m always here thinking, trying to figure out something to create and pursue. There are so many intricate steps between inception to release of something you want to make real. This thought hinders me, due to the realization of the time investment.
My craft resides mostly around development of programmatic features and implementations. Which I do and excel at professionally. However, when I’m outside of work there is always this lingering itch of desire to create something. I always lean towards a game system – something that can be seen visually. Bringing to life something, even virtually through combining letters and numbers together, by my hands has always been an appealing thought.
There is this hindrance and hesitation to begin, these days. Maybe it’s due to the realization of the time constraints, both of limitations to work on an independent project while also the investment needed to have any potential. I need to figure out how to create something that is simple yet still meaningful that I can share and be proud of.
The choices these days for where to begin are getting more vast. Which leads me to trying something new and different. I’m going to try out some digital painting and 3D modeling, in conjunction with this beast of a laptop I got here recently. I’ve done some 3D modeling before within Maya, but digital painting will be a whole new experience for me. I’m going to try to see what I can create that can spark inspiration towards my goals, and potentially become apart of them, we’ll see.
Often times, my attention span for personal projects diminishes. There are initial points where ideas and thoughts are clear and concise, and it feels like a smooth breeze. Where this proceeds to fizzle out overtime usually due to boredom, and the initial thought of inception becomes less meaningful. Maybe it’s due to no concrete personal goals. When I start a project it’s usually the thought of getting to the end that persists. Instead, I should set out these obtainable goals and checkpoints. I do this all the time in my professional environment, but something about the personal nature of my projects makes it less important to do so. Often times, just getting started and maintaining velocity is the difficult part independently.
I need to start looking at my independent projects as a journey, instead of something that needed to be done yesterday. That’s how I look at my projects at work for the most part, it keeps me motivated for some reason. Also, the idea of appreciation people will have on success. Something that only comes from yourself independently. Although a journey, it is still important to maintain cadence towards the current checkpoint. I’ll work towards making that a reality.
It should be fun I hope, that’s the important piece. Don’t make it about work, but make it a journey that can be enjoyed. See where it can take you instead of forcing the creation to emerge. Sometimes there may need to be some force, but make sure to get back towards the journey. Words to live by.